The Number #1 Song of 2016

I know it's NYE 2017 and I was just about to write the My Top 10 Favorite Hit Songs Of 2017 post, BUT I started going on a tangent and started talking about what the number #1 song of 2016 would have been if I had written that list.

My favorite song of 2016 was Closer by the Chainsmokers featuring Halsey. I think that song has a lot of emotion. It's about reckless, passionate love. It's about being young and taking risks. I really enjoyed that sentiment. 

When ToddInTheShadows did his Year-End Top 10 List for 2016, he did a really funny fake-out kinda thing. He led us to believe he was going to choose Roses by the Chainsmokers as his number one song but then he goes, "Screw it, Closer is number one." I LOVED THAT. I LOVEEEEED IT. Because it shook me. At that point, I knew Closer was my number one. I didn't dare think a smart, professional music reviewer like ToddInTheShadows could ever pick that song because a lot of people HATED that song AS THEY SHOULD.

The beauty of, "Closer," is that it's a stupid song. It has such childish writing and forced rhymes. ROVER SHOULDER CORNER BOULDER OLDER. 

It's so dumb but it works.

The musical production, in my unqualified opinion, is great. It feels nice.

When I look back at 2016, I will always remember Closer by the Chainsmokers. When I listen to that song 20 years from now, I'll instantly be transported into Summer 2016 which was a summer fueled by this song.

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Revenge Fantasies & Crazy In Love: A Taylor Swift and Crazy Ex Girlfriend (the TV show) Comparison

Right now, my two faves are my favorite album reputation and my favorite TV Show Crazy Ex Girlfriend. And so I noticed my two faves have a lot of common. A lot of themes that reputation talks about relate to the themes in Crazy Ex Girlfriend, especially in season 3.

Not that I am calling Taylor Swift crazy because that is a sexist term and it's a lot more nuanced than that.

my two "crazy" faves

Don't Blame Me, Love Made Me Crazy

Taylor Swift has a song called, "Don't Blame Me," where she writes, "Don't blame me, love made me crazy," which is what Crazy Ex Girlfriend's Season 2 Theme Song is also saying! The theme song lyrics are, "I'm just a girl in love, I can't be held responsible for my actions." When you think about it, those two lyrics mean the same exact thing - don't blame me (don't hold me responsible for my actions) because I am in love. The only difference is that Taylor Swift is playing it straight.



In my article  The 4 Types of Crazy as told by the Season 3 Crazy Ex Girlfriend Theme Song, I wrote about the second type of crazy which is "Crazy In Love." Taylor Swift's "Don't Blame Me" falls into this category. "Crazy is how your loving makes me feel, this is where I always want to be," says the season 3 theme song which is a sentiment echoed by "Don't Blame Me."

The Revenge Fantasy: Look What You Made Me Do (That You Didn't Ask For)

The title is a mixture of a Crazy Ex Girlfriend song AND a Taylor Swift Song. By now, everyone probably knows Taylor Swift's song "Look What You Made Me Do." You might not know that Crazy Ex Girlfriend has a song called, "After Everything You Made Me Do (That You Didn't Ask For)." Rebecca Bunch sings that song after she agonizes about how she can get revenge on her ex-fiance who left her at the alter. She sings the song because she believes this is a visceral way of getting revenge - letting the entire world know how terrible of a human Josh is because he's the one who made her do all these terrible things. The comparison isn't perfect but both songs are a revenge song. They are both a way of viscerally letting out revenge fueled emotions. 

The Revenge Fantasy is a huge part of the plot for Crazy Ex Girlfriend Season 3. In the episode, Josh's Ex Girlfriend Is Crazy, Rebecca Bunch literally transforms into a Kill Bill (or Swimfan) type of villain. The episode is shot like a horror film where she is trying to act out her revenge fantasy because she thinks this will make her feel better. In comparison to reputation, Taylor Swift also has a revenge fantasy when she sings, "Look What You Made Me Do," or, "I Did Something Bad," or "This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things." In all three of these songs, Taylor Swift tells us she has the power to get revenge on these people. She tells Kanye he can't hold nice things like a parent tells a child because children break things - effectively acting superior to him (TIWWCHNT). She alludes to having done something really bad and not regretting it one bit (IDSB). She says she has a list of enemies she's going to get revenge on. And these people have made her do something that they will regret (LWYMMD).

I Can Feel The Flames On My Skin (Taylor and Rebecca's love of FIRE) 

Taylor Swift mentions fire twice on her album. She writes, "I can feel the flames on my skin," in "I Did Something Bad," which I believe means that the bad thing she has done is setting a fire to something (symbolically). She has basically destroyed something in passion and anger. Taylor Swift also mentions fire in, "Getaway Car," "I struck a match and blew your mind," where she is saying she set fire to her relationship with Calvin Harris. I also think, "The light of freedom on my face," is a reference to the fire. When I hear that lyric, I imagine Taylor Swift looking into the fire and seeing the light that comes from it - symbolizing freedom.

Rebecca Bunch, everyone's favorite arsonist, also loves fire. After she broke up with Robert, she burned his apartment down in a fit of rage and anger and was sentenced to a mental health facility. After she broke up with Josh and Greg, she accidentally burns her apartment down trying to burn all of their stuff. For both Taylor and Rebecca, fire represents revenge and passion and anger.

reputation And The Need For External Validation

Taylor Swift titled the album reputation because for the months following the "Lying About Phone Call Scandal", Taylor had to deal with her emotions regarding her tarnished reputation. I believe Taylor Swift cares A LOT about what other people think of her. That's why in the past, she has been obsessed with controlling her image. With this new album, I think Taylor Swift wanted to let go of controlling her reputation and just let people talk. This is a healthy worldview and I hope Taylor has succeeded.

A Cool Tweet About Taylor I Resonated With:

It is Shakespearean tragedy that no matter how big Taylor Swift got it was never big enough that people couldn't hurt her

— Todd Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (@ShadowTodd) September 16, 2017

Rebecca Bunch also needs to learn how not to care what other people think of her. Rebecca also needs to stop seeking external validation through boys or her dad. In the song, "I'm A Good Person," she tries to force people into thinking she is a good person. But sadly, you cannot force someone to like you. You have to know you are a good person in your heart. You have to seek Internal Validation FROM YOURSELF.

Joseph Kahn Director of Josh's Ex Girlfriend Is Crazy AND Look What You Made Me Do

Joseph Kahn Really Likes Multiple Personalities In His Videos

Joseph Kahn directed the episode "Josh's Ex Girlfriend Is Crazy" AND the "Look What You Made Me Do" Music Video which is a cool coincidence! Both the episode and the music video are about a revenge fantasy. In addition, he also put multiple Rebecca Bunch personalities just like he did in LWYMMD where he shows multiple Taylor Swift personalities at the end. Looks like this guy has a signature style!

Thanks for reading! Let me know in the comments if you can think of any other cool similarities between Taylor Swift and Crazy Ex Girlfriend.

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Camila Cabello's Real Friends and the Lonely Symbolism of the Moon

Camila Cabello released a new song called, "Real Friends," which I love because it does a good job at portraying the emotions associated with being betrayed by friends. In addition, it relates the moon with loneliness which is the inspiration for this blog!! That got me really excited! Camila Cabello and I are so in sync!

I've talked about the background story for the name of this blog in my About Me page and in my new post Why Don't I Connect With Nice, Warm People Who Want To Spend Time With Me? Here is a quote:

A reoccurring thing that I feel is extreme loneliness when I spend time with people I don't feel like I have a connection with - and I feel bad because why don't I connect with nice warm people who want to spend time with me? There were a couple of times when I left a party or a person's house and let that loneliness wash over me. And the first thing I saw was the moon burning brightly in the night's sky. And in that moment my loneliness seemed just as natural as the moon.

 In Camila Cabello's "Real Friends," she writes,

I stay up, talkin' to the moon
Been feelin' so alone in every crowded room

and also:

Tell me what's the point of a moon like this
When I'm alone again

Camila and I both look at the moon and are reminded of our loneliness. Talking to the moon is something I would do as well. Especially when I left a party filled with loneliness. I felt like the moon, at least, had my back.


In my previous post, Why Don't I Connect With Nice, Warm People Who Want To Spend Time With Me?, I wrote about the feeling of being alone in a crowded room. When you do not have real friends, that is exactly how you feel. When you are hanging out with friends, you are supposed to have fun - not feel like something, to quote Drake, "ain't right when we're talking." (From Drake's song, Fake Love.)

It is also cool how Camila writes, "This paper town has let me down too many times," which is probably inspired by John Green's movie and book, "Paper Towns," which I reviewed on this blog. You can read my Paper Town Review Here.

The song was also released around the one year anniversary of the heartache of my betrayal.

Thanks for reading! I was just excited about all the connections and how Camila is a kindred soul. The moon is beautiful and it's cool how two people thousands of miles away from each other could think the same thing as they are looking up at it.

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Is Sam Hunt 's "This Land Is Your Land" A Political Statement?

I checked my release radar on Spotify yesterday night and I saw that Sam Hunt had recorded a cover of, "This Land Is Your Land," for Will Smith's new Netflix movie "Bright." I was excited immediately because I love the message of this song. American Song Writer, describes the song as, "Both an eloquent description of our nation’s beauty and, as originally written, an expression of scorn for those who don’t see fit to share it." The lyrics, "This land is your land, this land is my land," portray those emotions.

I think it is so cool that a country artist would cover this song - especially in 2017! Country fans tend to be more conservative and I'm sure many of them voted for Trump in the 2016 election. Donald Trump was elected president after a racist and xenophobic platform. The exact opposite of this song. Some examples:

• In a speech he said, "Donald J. Trump is calling for a total and complete shutdown of Muslims entering the United States." 
• When he tried to enact a Muslim Ban by banning Muslim countries.
• He wants to build a ridiculously expensive wall between the United States and Mexico.

These examples show a man who does not believe in "This Land is Your Land."  I am happy that Sam Hunt put this song on the Country Fan Radar. I hope conservative, country fans hear this patriotic song about inclusion and take a moment to think about what it means.

This song is about accepting all races and religions into this country and treating them with respect. It's against White Nationalism which says that America should predominately be White and Christian. This song is against building an unnecessary, expensive wall between our brown neighbors. This song is even about helping the poor instead of cutting taxes for the wealthy. (There are some discarded verses that talk about the poor masses.  Some discarded verses even talk about a wall. LINK).


Lady Gaga sang this song at the Super Bowl and people discussed if it was a political statement (Link). I know the movie, Bright, is supposed to tackle social issues like racism and police brutality so I can see why they put this song in the soundtrack.  I don't know if Sam Hunt thought about the implications of singing this song. I like to think he did; Sam Hunt's a smart guy and writes meaningful lyrics. I like to think he analyzed the lyrics before agreeing to do it. It's a very subtle way of standing against Trump, but I am glad Sam Hunt (maybe) chose to do it. It gives me more respect for the guy and I am more excited about supporting his future music.

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Thoughts On Cat Person: Society Teaches Women To Appease Men Before Their Own Needs

It's Monday, December 11, 2017 and the talk of Twitter is a short story titled, "Cat Person," by Kristen Roupenian. You can read it in its entirety here. Another recommended read is the interview with the author in the New York Times which I have linked here. I wanted to explore some of the themes of this short story.

Society Teaches Women To Appease Men Before Their Own Needs

One thing that I loved about this short story is how they explore how hard it is to find genuine connection with someone. Throughout the story, Margot is constantly trying to understand her date and he is trying to do the same. They both experience many different moods throughout the date - anxiety, sadness, anger, and even calm at some points.

Margot, as a woman, constantly tries to regulate Robert's moods. She gets worried when she thinks she has upset him. She even makes self-depreciating jokes just so that she can appease his ego. She cries at the bar because she thinks he will get mad at her for wasting his time trying to get into the bar. Unfortunately, our society constantly puts the onus on women to always please even if their needs are not being met. And what does Robert do? He acts moody and sullen and quiet during the car ride to the movie theater. Margot tries to make conversation but it just doesn't work. Could Robert have tried harder to appease her? Could he have taken the hint when she said, "Are You Serious?" about watching a Holocaust movie and appeased her by seeing something else?

I guess what I am saying is Margot should overthink less. If something isn't going well, it's on both parties and not just you. You don't have to make the date go smoothly.

Dating As A Woman

Dating as a woman is scary; especially dating a stranger. How can you know who to trust? A One Night Stand with a stranger is much more dangerous situation for a woman (as sung in the Crazy Ex Girlfriend song Sex With A Stranger). You could get murdered or raped; if the man is physically stronger and bigger than you, it would be hard to fight back and stay alive.

Thankfully, Robert doesn't murder or rape her. It's just society that tells Margot, that once she consents to sex or a date, she can't take it back. But girls!!! You can! If you feel uncomfortable with sex, you can say "actually I changed my mind." And men, if a woman ever says to you to stop sex, YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO HER OR ELSE IT IS RAPE.

Dating as a woman is dangerous also because men haven't been brought up to respect women in society. That's why at the end of the story, Robert calls her a "whore," which shows that he does get angry at rejection. What if she had said no in the middle of sex? What if she had rejected him in the middle of sex? Would he have listened to her and understood? Or would he have gotten angry like he did at the end of the essay?

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Getting Over Jeff: Crazy Ex Girlfriend Mid-Season Finale S3E7 Review

Getting Over Jeff: Crazy Ex Girlfriend Mid-Season Finale S3E7 Review

This episode was a ray of sunshine. Even the opening scene has a lot of warm sunshiny colors as evidenced in the screenshot below. (Or maybe my TV settings really brought out the bright, warm tones of this scene.)

"Getting Over Jeff," is the first episode without Josh's name in the title. AND I think it's the first episode where Rebecca does not say the word "Josh" AT ALL.

I like how this show makes an effort to show how after Rebecca's suicide attempt, she is living a much healthier and nice life. It shows that there is hope. That if you are suicidal, you can get help and live a much better and less painful life.

Getting A Much Better Grade - a C+: I can relate to Rebecca a lot and what really touched me this episode was the discussion about not putting so much pressure on yourself to be too good (or too bad). We have to learn to live in that in-between space. We are all good and bad. Don't beat yourself up if you make a mistake because you think you need to be perfect. And also, if you do make a mistake, don't just assume you are all bad and keep on making more bad mistakes.

I really have to learn how to live in that in-between space as well. I need to know that I am ENOUGH. I can make mistakes and not be so hard on myself. Crazy Ex Girlfriend is like therapy to me.


Paula's Josh Chan: Jeff Channington: "Getting Over Jeff," is a Paula-centric episode which is great because we really learn a lot about her. We learn she is not as committed to her husband and kids because there is a part of her that still remembers her, "first everything" Jeff Channington. Jeff made her feel warm, like glitter was exploding inside of her. She finds her family boring because they are a stable, loving family. It looks like Paual has always been chasing her own "high" as many of us do (me!!) whether that is Rebecca or her vampire novels. After meeting Jeff and rejecting him, she finally can let go of the fantasy she has of him. She can appreciate her family which loves her even though those glitter feelings may have died down.

Paula's dad is everything we thought he would be. He's a drunk and mean. Rebecca laughs and has fun with him even though he is everything she is against. I wonder if, due to her therapy, she just wants to enjoy life whenever she can and so she is laughing at his ridiculousness. Were her good times with Paula's dad genuine?


First Penis I Saw: It's a funny song with great usage of props (suggestive fruits). It's a bit crass but hey! it wouldn't be Crazy Ex Girlfriend if it wasn't.

My Friend's Dad: Rebecca seemed so happy she had a platonic friend....which gets ruined when her friend says he pictures her naked. Paula's dad is a sleezeball so it makes sense. But Rebecca does have platonic male friends - what about Darryl? I bet he never objectifies her and actually loves her in a platonic way.

Nathaniel and Rebecca: I am falling for these two! I'm guessing future episodes will focus on Rebecca learning how she can be in a health relationship. The hug scene was so sweet. That was such a long hug! And that sequoia metaphor! It was so sweet - I AM DYING. And at the end, Rebecca re-enacts the flying squirrel scene and has sex with him. She is giving herself a chance to live and experience the world and not just life in her therapy books.


Darryl and White Josh: Listen, I am not worried about these two. Just like in Jane The Virgin when Xo and Rogelio broke up because of the baby, one will have to sacrifice for the other. THEY ARE END GAME IT IS FINE. (Though, I think the "baby" thing is a lazy plot device).

Josh the "Big Boy": Wow, is Josh spiraling or what? I hope he does learn how to become a man.

The show is back on the air January 5th! Can't wait! (Is Rebecca a waiter now? Just watched the promo.)

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Gravity Falls: Legend Of The Gnome Gemulets Review

Gravity Falls: Legend Of The Gnome Gemulets Review

I bought my Nintendo 3DS two years ago, and my lazy self hasn't beaten a single game on the console (until yesterday!). What can I say? I'm not great at completing things AND Animal Crossing: New Leaf kept me obsessed FOR MONTHS.

But guess what? On December, 4, 2017, I finished my first 3DS game - Gravity Falls: Legend Of The Gnome Gemulets. When Gravity Falls was on the air, I was in love with it. I love a mystery show DONE WELL. I respect Alex Hirsch decision to only make 2 seasons of the show (we all know how good shows get ruined by extending the story). Gravity Falls will go down in history as one of the BEST shows of this decade.

So naturally, I had to play the video game. It was fun, the graphics were amazing. You really did feel like you were a part of Dipper and Mabel's world. You could explore the town, Mystery Shack, and the Town. You could also talk to some of our favorite characters like Wendy, Pacifica, Grenda, Candy, and Robbie. There was some witty lines from all the characters - especially Grunkle Stan. You learned more about about the Pines family - with Grunkle Stan even talking about Shermie (Dipper and Mabel's father) and how they were born. Mabel's the oldest! I loved that easter egg.  Another interesting conversation was with Pacifica where they alluded to Dipper/Pacifica. I was like "ooooo" when that happened.

The game play was easy. This was good for me as my video game skills have deteriorated and this game gave me confidence to pursue other video games. Also, the story was VERY short. That's why I was so surprised when I got to the ending. 

The after-game was to find all the lost items of our favorite characters. This took me some time, and I did have to look online to find some of the stuff. For anyone struggling, make sure when you start a level to go to the left and check if there are any items. In the beginning of the Lake level, you actually had to push a crate all the way to the left where there was a cliff to get the item. I also had trouble with the Deep Forest level (I found the missing item near the multiple bouncing mushrooms - it was to the left of the last bouncing mushroom). I don't remember which items I had the most trouble with but I think it was one of Wendy's cassettes,  Grenda's dumbbells and Robbie's song lyrics. There is no reward for giving everyone their items but I wanted to truly beat the game and so I did.

Another weird thing that happened to me as I was playing is that in the final boss, I accidently lost all my health the EXACT moment I defeated the beast. This caused a weird thing where I saw the "success" dialogue and then got a message that I had lost. When I tried to "Restart Sequence," I just got a screen with Mabel and Dipper falling endlessly in the bottomless pit. I was so confused. I didn't want to start the level over. But alas, I had to (which made me fight Dark Jeff over again).

Anyway, I would rate this game 4/5. It is a must-have for any hard-core Gravity Falls fan. Maybe it was an easy game because it was a game for kids? IDK lol xD.

There should be a link to buy the video game from amazon below if you are interested.

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Why Don't I Connect With Nice, Warm People Who Want To Spend Time With Me?

As I alluded to in my How Taylor Swift's "If You're Anything Like Me" reputation Poem Helped Me Heal post, I was recently betrayed by some of my friends. Well, not "recently" exactly - we are nearing the one year anniversary of the betrayal in a few days. It does definitely sting less and I have healed in these last 12 months. The betrayal was traumatic and horrific. I won't describe it in detail but it was VERY similar to Shakespeare's The Tragedy of Julius Caesar. Basically, my very own Cassius conspired behind my back to turn my friends against me - including my best friend (Et tu Brutus?). And then they all ganged up and attacked me, leaving me in a pool of blood with a knife searing through my back. My very own Ides of March if you will (more like the Ides of December). I didn't die tho so that's a positive.

Anyway, I just wanted to give an update on something I wrote about in the About Me page of this website.

In my About Me, I talk about the inspiration for the name of this blog - Me, Myself, and the Moon. I wrote:

A reoccurring thing that I feel is extreme loneliness when I spend time with people I don't feel like I have a connection with - and I feel bad because why don't I connect with nice warm people who want to spend time with me? There were a couple of times when I left a party or a person's house and let that loneliness wash over me. And the first thing I saw was the moon burning brightly in the night's sky. And in that moment my loneliness seemed just as natural as the moon.

With this betrayal, I have received my answer to the above, bolded question. To an outsider, my social life Pre-December 2016, would look super cool and fun. What they wouldn't know is that I would feel hella lonely most of the time I hung out with my friends. It was the idea of "Feeling Lonely In A Crowded Room." I have low self-esteem so I immediately thought something was wrong with me - I was too lame and weird to fit in with them. But now I know that is not true.

I was wrong when I called my friends "nice" and "warm." There was a reason why I never connected with them and that reason was that they never really cared about me. Maybe if they did, they would have tried harder to get to know me and vibe with me. I now know they just weren't the right people for me. For one thing, the right people would have never have treated me so horribly.

One year has passed since the betrayal and I am in a good place. After the betrayal, I realized my friendship count had been cut in half. But six months later, I found new friends who I have a great time with. I went to a Halloween Party hosted by one of my new friends, and I had a BLAST. What a change from what I described above! It's because this new friend and I have much more in common. She allows me to be myself without judgement. I also appreciate the few old friends who listened to my sadness and stood by me when the betrayal happened.. I have a lot of gratitude for "the real ones."

I wanted to give some advice to anyone who is in a similar position as me.

Evaluate The Quality of Your Friends:

My low self-esteem and confidence caused me to accept anyone as my friend. I was like a desperate beggar because I thought I was lame and weird and why would anyone want to hang out with me? 

I think if someone wants to be your friend, you should appreciate it and give them a chance. However, if after the n-th time you hang out with them and you feel a) they aren't treating you right or 2) you don't have a good time with them, it's okay to decline invites. It's okay to say, "well, we gave it a shot but I don't think we are friend material." You don't have to say it to their face; you can just decline invites and distance yourself.  You are doing a favor, not just for yourself, but for the other person as well. The other person deserves to hang out with people who really enjoy spending time with them. 

A mistake I made, that led to the betrayal, is that I didn't evaluate. I never asked myself: Do I trust these people? Oh God, if I had asked myself that question, I would have never given them the power to hurt me. You need to ask yourself: would these people have my back if I needed them? If the answer is no - keep them casual friends and don't invite them into your circle of trust.

If You Don't Like Your Friends, Get New Friends:

One of the mantras of my life is: IT IS BETTER TO BE ALONE THAN BE WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T CARE ABOUT YOU. 

This is so important. Sometimes we are so scared of being alone, we accept anyone into our lives. But I promise you, if you leave your toxic friends or your toxic boyfriend, you will be okay. You have everything within yourself to be okay. It's okay to be alone.

And you will find your people, eventually. You will find kind people you connect with and have a fun time with. It might take some time but it will happen. You gotta have hope.

Not Everyone Is Going To Like You And That's Okay:

I am a people pleaser. I wanted EVERYONE to like me. But not everyone is going to like you and that is okay. You are still a worthy human being.

I used to validate my self worth based on everyone liking me. Now I know I have to embrace people not liking me, and just move on. 

I'm a weird person. I am not a typical American 20-something. So I was afraid I wouldn't find anyone who liked me so I clung to anyone who gave me attention. I also hid who I was.  I was scared of being myself, speaking my mind, and sharing my interests. This led me to become friends with people who I didn't have much in common with. That's why I felt so off when I hung out with them. 

But now I am ready to embrace my weirdness. A LOT of people won't like me because of my weirdness. I just need to find the people who do. I will never be the popular, cool girl because weird people just don't connect with the masses. We connect with our own special niche and that's beautiful.

And now when I look at the moon, I don't feel so lonely anymore.

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Harry Styles Lyrics Project Complete!!!

OMG I AM SO EXCITED.

I just completed analyzing EVERY song off of Harry Styles, the album!!

Listen, I am not one who completes things. I start projects and I forget about them. But today, December 2, 2017, I completed a project. Thanks for going on this journey with me you guys.

If you want to go back to a previous post here's a list:

• Meet Me in the Hallway
• Sign of the Times
• Carolina
• Two Ghosts
• Sweet Creature
• Only Angel
• Kiwi
• Ever Since New York
• Woman
• From The Dining Table

If you want to check out some of my other Harry Styles articles, here's a list:

• Every Song Off Harry Styles, the album RANKED

• Harry Styles at Radio City Music Hall: Kiwi is now my favorite song.
• Fangirling over Harry Styles' Appearances on the Late Late Show with James Corden
• Me Listening to Harry Styles' New Album (The "I Love This Song" Michael Jackson Meme)
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• POLL RESULTS: BEST SONG FROM HARRY STYLES' NEW ALBUM?

And finally, if you want to read some of my favorite articles I have written so far:

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Also, don't forget to vote on the poll. THANKS SO MUCH!

From the Dining Table, a lyrical analysis from Harry Styles the album

From The Dining Table, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

This is another sad song from Harry's album. 

Woke up alone in this hotel room  

Played with myself, where were you?  

Fell back to sleep, I got drunk by noon 

I've never felt less cool

WHAAAAT? When I heard this verse, I was shook. Harry Styles masturbates?!?!?!!? My boyband fangirl heart was SHOOK. (I have already reacted to this line here  But I felt like I had to react again).


But to be honest, that line is pretty crass and out of the blue. I understand why Harry mentions it, he wants to portray himself as defeated and hopeless. He's alone, masturbating, day drinking - he knows he is a mess.

We haven't spoke since you went away
Comfortable silence is so overrated
Why won't you ever be the first one to break?
Even my phone misses your call, by the way

Unlike Ever Since New York, I think this sad song is about a relationship. Harry and his lover had a fight and Harry wishes so much that she would call him and make up. Harry is always the one who calls. It looks like Harry is the one who loves more in this scenario.

I saw your friend that you know from work
He said you feel just fine
I see you gave him my old t-shirt
More of what was once mine

Harry's ex lover has moved onto a new man and he is jealous. This is similar to Woman.


I do wonder what boyfriend would wear his girlfriend's ex-boyfriend's shirt? Maybe she just never mentioned it was her ex-boyfriend's shirt? Still, it's a little weird - just throw your ex-boyfriend's shirt away - don't gift it to your new boyfriend.

"More of what was once mine," means that she was once Harry's. 

I see it's written, it's all over his face
Comfortable silence is so overrated
Why won't you ever say what you want to say?
Even my phone misses your call, by the way

Maybe the girl's new boyfriend doesn't mind her inability to communicate. Harry's ex-girlfriend and her new boyfriend are both okay with comfortable silence which Harry think is overrated. He wants the girl to say what she really feels.

I like Harry imagining that the phone feels the same way. The phone also misses having her name light up on it's screen. Maybe it makes Harry feel better that something else feels the same way he does.

Maybe one day you'll call me and tell me that you're sorry too
Maybe one day you'll call me and tell me that you're sorry too
Maybe one day you'll call me and tell me that you're sorry too

But you, you never do 

I love these lines and how they repeat over and over again. These lyrics are filled with such passionate longing. Harry is hoping for the impossible.

Woke up the girl who looked just like you
I almost said your name

Harry does have a type when he dates - models. So it makes sense that one of his hookups looks very similar to the girl he is longing for.  Here, it's like Harry is trying to distract himself with other women but they just remind him of her.

We haven't spoke since you went away
Comfortable silence is so overrated
Why won't you ever say what you want to say?
Even my phone misses your call

Harry wishes so badly that she would just magically call. And then they would talk and work out their problems and get back together. The longing is intense with this one.

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Woman, a lyrical analysis from Harry Styles the album

Woman, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

Should we just search romantic comedies on Netflix and see what we find?

One thing I know about Harry Styles from watching interview videos is that he does love romantic comedies! One thing I know about Netflix is there aren't that many good romantic comedies on there.

I'm selfish, I know
But I don't ever want to see you with him
I'm selfish, I know
I told you, but I know you never listen 

I hope you can see, the shape that I'm in
While he's touching your skin
He's right where I should, where I should be
But you're making me bleed

Woman is a song about being jealous of an Ex's new boyfriend. Harry and his Ex aren't a good couple and he knows that. However, he still doesn't want to see her with a new man which is what makes him selfish.

Tempted, you know
Apologies are never gonna fix this
I'm empty, I know
And promises are broken like a stitches

It isn't clear who should be apologizing to who. What is clear is that the relationship has had some problems which they both know can't be fixed.

I am convinced this song is about Taylor Swift because of the "stitches" line. After Taylor and Harry's famous snowmobile accident, Harry had to get stitches on his chin. I feel like Harry is purposely referencing stitches to allude to the incident.

I hope you can see, the shape I've been in
While he's touching your skin
This thing upon me, howls like a beast
You flower, you feast

His thoughts of his Ex and her new lover are eating him up inside. This is similar to The Killer's song "Mr. Brightside." "You flower, you feast," may mean that his Ex lover has improved and gotten better, and now she is ready to enjoy the rewards of improving - her new man. Meanwhile, Harry is still fighting with himself over loosing her.

I am not sure why the chorus is just "Woman," being repeated (or why there are any duck noises LOL). Maybe Harry is just like this is what happens when you love a woman.

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Ever Since New York, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

Ever Since New York is an interesting song because I am unable to pinpoint what exactly it is about. It's definitely a sad song, but Harry is vague when he is telling his story.

Tell me something, tell me something
You don’t know nothing, just pretend you do
I need something, tell me something new
Choose your words, 'cause there's no antidote
For this curse, oh, what's it waiting for?
Must this hurt you just before you go?

Harry has received some bad news. He wants someone to tell him something new - something good, something hopeful. He wants them to pretend everything will be alright but he knows that it won't.

Brooklyn saw me, empty at the news
There's no water inside this swimming pool
 Almost over, had enough from you
And I've been praying, I never did before
Understand I'm talking to the walls
I've been praying ever since New York

I read somewhere that, "There's no water inside this swimming pool," means that he's cried so much that he doesn't have tears left. Maybe the phone call he received or the first time he heard the news, it was in New York. This song MAY be about Robin Twist, his stepfather, who died earlier this year. Maybe Harry had heard about his cancer diagnosis worsening. I do NOT think this song is about Taylor Swift AT ALL even though New York was the setting of their romance. The song sounds too serious to be about a romantic break up. If it is about Robin Twist, I am so sad; I cannot imagine loosing a loved one to cancer.

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Kiwi, a lyrical analysis from Harry Styles the album

Kiwi, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

Similar to my last post, the lyrical analysis of Only Angel, Kiwi continues the rock and roll trope of singing about a cool, bad girl.

She worked her way through a cheap pack of cigarettes
Hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect
And all the boys, they were saying they were into it
Such a pretty face, on a pretty neck

I always wondered why Harry deliberately decided to point at her neck. My best guess is that maybe he is excited to kiss her neck which is a sexy make out tradition.

She's driving me crazy,
but I'm into it, but I'm into it
I'm kinda into it It's getting crazy,
I think I'm losing it,
I think I'm losing it
I think she said "I'm having your baby, it's none of your business"
"I'm having your baby, it's none of your business"
"I'm having your baby, it's none of your business"
"I'm having your baby, it's none of your, it's none of your"

I know Harry Styles would never shade his boys from One Direction, but these lines always remind me of Louis and Liam who are already fathers at such an early age.  However, I think Harry is just trying to depict this girl as crazy but also bad and exciting. He's into it which is strange because a girl who wants to have your baby just for money and fame is a huge red flag.

It's New York, baby, always jacked up
Holland Tunnel for a nose, it's always backed up
When she's alone, she goes home to a cactus
In a black dress, she's such a such an actress

Her nose being backed up means she is doing cocaine. Once again, she is exciting in a bad way. "Goes home to a cactus" can mean going home to a prick- i.e that her current boyfriend is a prick.

The New York line and the black dress line reminds me of Taylor Swift; Taylor and Harry used to hang out in NYC a lot AND Taylor mentions a black dress in So It Goes. 👀 Sorry, that's just a thought I had because I was just listening to So It Goes a few minutes earlier.

The "she's such an actress," might not mean she is ACTUALLY an actress. Maybe she is just extra and dramatic.

She sits beside me like a silhouette
Hard candy dripping on me 'til my feet are wet
And now she's all over me, it's like I paid for it
It's like I paid for it, I'm gonna pay for this

I have already reacted to this line here.

Kiwi is a damn good song (even better in concert). I love the Rock and Roll vibes and the exciting-in-a-bad-way subject matter.

Why Did Harry Styles Name The Song Kiwi

I'm not sure but maybe the Hard Candy he mentioned above was Kiwi flavored. Take that for what you will 😉.

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Only Angel, a lyrical analysis from Harry Styles the album

Only Angel, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

Only Angel starts off sweet and slow musically and then kicks off with some intense Rock and Roll beats. The saccharine of the beginning few seconds stems from the song title being about an angel. Angels are characterized as pure and good. The person Harry is singing about is both good and bad. She is a kind soul but she can be bad in an exciting way for Harry.

Open up your eyes, shut your mouth and see 

Harry is being a little saucy here - telling his lover to shut up. It's bad and exciting.

That I'm still the only one who's been in love with me 

This line reminds me of The 1975. In their song, "The Sound," they sing, "It's not about reciprocation, it's just all about me," which is similar because both artists are being selfish. I know Harry Styles and One Direction do get inspired by The 1975 (One Direction was even accused of copying from them! *GASP*).

I'm just happy getting you stuck in between my teeth
And there's nothing I can do about it 

I have reacted to this line already here.

Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door
I got splinters in my knuckles crawling across the floor 

These lines remind me of Meet Me In The Hallway. Harry is pleading with his lover to stay and be with him. The person Harry is talking about is very enticing and may be playing hard to get - and Harry is falling for it with reckless abandon.

Couldn't take you home to mother in a skirt that short
But I think that's what I like about it

Once again, Harry is emphasizing that this girl is bad in an exciting way.

I must admit I thought I'd like to make you mine
As I went about my business through the warning signs
End up meeting in the hallway every single time
And there's nothing we can do about it
Told it to her brother and she told it to me
That she's gonna be an angel, just you wait and see
When it turns out she's a devil in between the sheets
And there's nothing she can do about it

He even mentions meeting in the hallway here! This song does have a lot of connections with  Meet Me In The Hallway. Here Harry is recognizing this girl's good and bad side. She's an angel but she's also a "devil in between the sheets" - that's what makes her so cool.

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Every Song Off Taylor Swift's reputation album RANKED [Track-by-Track Review] Part 2

I am ranking EVERY song off of Taylor Swift's album reputation. Click here to read Part 2, which lists Taylor's bottom 7 songs. Now let's get started with Taylor's top 8 songs off this album.

8) Delicate

This song perfectly captures how it feels to be unsure if something is going to work out. Taylor treats her new relationship as if it is delicate and fragile so she doesn't end up ruining it. She wants to put her heart and soul into the relationship but is holding back. It's a good song musically and sounds great while driving (similar to 1989's "Style"). It's a little similar to, "So It Goes," as Taylor sings in a soft voice. But here, her use of a soft voice matches the name of the song, "Delicate."

I love the line, "We can't make any promises now, can we babe?/But you can make me a drink." It's a line you can use when the entire world around you is in flames and all you can do is cherish the present. Taylor's lover is spending time with her now and she enjoys it; she doesn't need to bring up the future.

About the lyrics: "My reputation's never been worse so he must like me for me" - I feel like even when Taylor's reputation was at it's worst, she still was rich and powerful so there could still be some insincere reasons why someone would want to date her.

Favorite Lyrics: Sometimes I wonder when you sleep/Are you ever dreaming of me?/Sometimes when I look into your eyes/I pretend you're mine, all the damn time/'Cause I like you

7) End Game 

This song is so fun!!! I love singing along to, "BIG REPUTATION BIG REPUTATION OOOO YOU AND ME WE GOT BIG REPUTATIONS AHHH." I like how she mentions she's got big enemies like she's happy about it. I enjoy the line, "You like the bad ones too," because pop culture usually only says girls like bad boys. But in reality, boys like bad girls as well, and Taylor's proud to be one. There are some GREAT lines in this song. "And I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put 'em," and "I swear I don't love the drama, it loves me," which I already made fun of here. I basically love Taylor's entire "rap" verse. To be honest, when it comes to Future and Ed Sheeran, neither do a GREAT job with their verses. My favorite parts are all Taylor.

One cool thing to point out is that "A Team" is a reference to Ed Sheeran's song "The A Team."

I have no idea WHO this song is about as "you and me, we got big reputations," doesn't make sense when it comes to Joe Alwyn as he isn't that popular. Sadly, whoever this song is about, he was NOT Taylor's end game.

Favorite Lyrics: "And I bury hatchets, but I keep maps of where I put 'em."

6) Dress

Taylor Swift does a good job at writing a sexy song here. I mentioned in my So It Goes review that her sexy lyrics there sounded forced. Here, it makes sense. I like how she sets up the scene by singing "All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation/My hands are shaking from holding back from you." The anticipation she describes is what makes the payoff of the chorus so good. I like her "ah ah ah"s which I am guessing is supposed to mimic sex sounds but it sounds sensual and nice.

I like how in one of the last verses she pauses after singing, "Say my name and everything just stops." It's similar to how Harry Styles in "Two Ghosts," pauses after "heart" and "beat." 

Favorite Lyrics: "All of this silence and patience, pining and anticipation/My hands are shaking from holding back from you."

5) New Year's Day

I read somewhere from another reviewer that this is Taylor's worst acoustic/slow song and I've got to agree. "Clean," and "All Too Well," and, "Dear John," are much better songs. But reputation, is a dark album and I enjoy the light this song brings to the listener. It's simple and sweet. I like the contrast between "midnight," and "New Year's Day," - one representing  passion and the other representing stability. 

I love LOVE love the following line:

Favorite Lyrics: Please don't ever become a stranger/who's laugh I could recognize anywhere

These lyrics remind me of a Speak Now song called, "Enchanted" where she sings, "Please don't be in love with someone else." It's the use of "Please" and because both take place in the refrain that makes it so similar. This goes back to what I said in Part 1, Taylor might have written so many songs that she is starting to accidentally use her old lyrics. The old Taylor is definitely NOT dead.

4) Gorgeous

Gorgeous was the first song off reputation that I really liked. Taylor released this song as her 3rd promotional single and I thought it was hilarious. Taylor Swift is at her best when she is relateable.  What's more relatable than not being able to talk to your crush because you like them so much? Here, Taylor goes back to her roots. Singing songs about boys that any teenage girl can relate to. It's a funny song ("Guess I'll just stumble on home to my cats") and the music sounds good.

Favorite Lyrics: You should take it as a compliment/That I'm talking to everyone here but you

^^^ That's a classic "me" move.

3) This is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

Now we get into the good stuff. The top 3 songs on this list are songs that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. I LOVE THESE THREE SONGS SOOOO MUCH.

I love everything about this song. I love how it starts with Taylor Swift enjoying her money and fame and being open to the world - and ends with it all crashing down. I love the imagery of her parties - "swimming in a champagne sea." I love how "this is why we can't have nice things" is something a parent would say to a misbehaving child. It's got so much sass for Kanye and Kim.

Favorite Lyrics:

It was so nice being friends again 

There I was, giving you a second chance 

But then you stabbed in the back while shaking my hand 

And therein lies the issue 

Friends don't try to trick you 

Get you on the phone and mind-twist you 

And so I took an axe to a mended fence

I love this verse because I can relate to it so much because I went through a friendship back-stabbing as well.  I love the imagery of "I took an axe to a mended fence."

Favorite Lyrics (again): "And here's to my real friends." and "And here's to my mama/had to listen to all this drama."

I love this part. In tough times like these, you gotta cherish REAL friends and of course, your mother who will be there for you when you are at rock bottom. When I heard the "And here's to my mama/had to listen to all this drama," I screamed because that may be the most relateable Taylor Swift line for me to date. I can't relate to "here's to my baby," but I'm glad Taylor has some more sources of support.

Also, it's an excellent sounding song!

2) I Did Something Bad

This song is such a good diss track (to I'm guessing Kanye West and Calvin Harris?) "If a man talks shit, then I owe him nothing/I don't regret it one bit, 'cause he had it coming" is such a powerful line. I love how she says "man," like he means nothing to him (when men are associated with being powerful and strong; I love how she flips the script). "I can feel flames on my skin," I love the imagery of destruction and and running away from something painful. 

"They're burning all the witches" and "so light me up Light Me Up LIGHT ME UP." It's so powerful how she's not afraid of being burned - how she willingly accepts the flames. She sounds so forceful and strong - I am in LOVE with this song.

"I Did Something Bad" makes me want to recreate Beyonce's Hold Up music video. I want to walk down a street with a baseball bat just destroying stuff with this song playing in the background. There are even sound effects in the song that sounds like hitting stuff. I just love the crazy but powerful revenge feelings this song exemplifies. 

Favorite Lyrics: EVERYTHING I LISTED ABOVE

1) Getaway Car

This is the most artistic and poetic song on the album and that's why it is first place! The metaphor of the getaway car is done so beautifully. We met me in a getaway car and now I am going to leave you in a getaway car. I hope this song gets a music video because it's going to be epic. Seeing Taylor getting chased, and then betraying her lover. I love every part of this song. I love the part where she describes the MET gala where she met Tom Hiddleston ("The ties were black, the lies were white"). I love the part where Calvin Harris runs after Hiddleswift and Taylor shots, "Go, Go, Go." Taylor got her start in country music and my favorite country music songs are the ones that tell a story. This one tells a really interesting story. I even like the last few seconds where she sings "I was RIDING in a getaway car. I was CRYING in a getaway car I was DYING in a getaway car Said GOODBYE in a getaway car," - these last few lines have a lot of emotion.

The chorus sounds great while driving probably because the song is about a car ("we were flying!")

Favorite Lyrics: "No, nothing good starts in a getaway car." <- Taylor starts the song off with this excellent thesis statement.

Favorite Lyrics: "A Circus Isn't a Love Story."

Favorite Lyrics: "Cause us traitors never win."

Thanks for reading my review. If you'd like to go back to Part 1  of the review click here. Please let me know if you agree or disagree with my rankings. How would you rank the songs off of Taylor's album? Let me know in the comments - I'd love to hear from you!

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